These are letters to Jack, my son, and my daughter, Audrey. You have given me the gift of motherhood. This is just a little gift back. I want to share my experiences with you of your childhood from my perspective of watching you grow - of being your Mom.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

To move or not to move - that is the question...


The 17th we celebrated your birthday with your Daddy's side of the family. There were 20 people packed into our small house, but what a fun time it was!
We setup your Birthday Buzz before everyone came. You weren't pleased with him anywhere we put him.I started to worry that you might be too tired to enjoy your party...I needn't have worried! :)
You were thrilled to see Grandma and Grandpa and sat with them and ate some dinner and enjoyed having them there with you.
Your Daddy had made quite a spread - BBQ hamburgers, chicken, hot dogs, potatoe salad, beans, deviled eggs, and just about anything you could want. I think the whole family loved your birthday dinner. You love your cousins and had a blast playing with them anywhere. At the table.... and running around with them and watching everything they did very intently so you could pick it up later. After dinner, you opened presents.
At first, you were pretty upset because you wanted to play with your cousins and this business of opening gifts simply DID NOT factor in!
It got better, though, when you cousins decided to help you - aka: open your presents for you.
Then all was good with the world again!
We had a wonderful time!
Your cousins, Nick and Amber, had both driven in from their respective colleges in order to be a part of your birthday celebration.
I was touched by this and I know you will be, too, one day when you are in college and realize that this means to your studies and social schedule.
We have wonderful family!
Then it was cake time. I had shown you the Lightening McQueen cake earlier and you were clamoring for a piece of it.
So you got one.
A big one.
And you loved it! :)
Not wanting to brush over your second party, but my mind has been elsewhere since the 16th. On the 16th, your Daddy found out at his work that his job was being transferred to Texas. He got an offer to transfer to Texas and relocate.

This kind of took us both by surprise. Both of our families are here and, while the initial thought of transferring to a new city and a new home was kind of exciting, it also scared the hell out of me.

We love Saint Louis and the support structure that we have here with both of our families so close by. So we have been knee deep in trying to figure out what is best to do. I have posted more resumes online for jobs in Texas and Clay has posted for jobs here in Saint Louis.

The kicker is that we need to have our decisions made by April 9th. This doesn't give us a lot of time to make such a huge decision so we are not sleeping very well, stressed to the max and this morning I got upset over leaving the house 15 minutes later than I usually do.

To put it bluntly - I'm not handling this very well.

It's just the unknown that bothers me so much and there is SO much unknown in this scenario. What job options does Clay have to choose from? I don't know - we haven't heard back on them yet....
What job options do I have to choose from? We don't know - haven't heard back on them yet....

So many questions and so little answers and time is winding down.

Anyway, that's where my mind is right now and you are getting to watch a lot more TV and eat more Cheezbawlz lately than usual because I am online more and trying to figure things out.

We'll know soon enough. We'll have to. It's almost April... :)



1 comment:

Erin said...

Hey, I know the answer! Don't move.