These are letters to Jack, my son, and my daughter, Audrey. You have given me the gift of motherhood. This is just a little gift back. I want to share my experiences with you of your childhood from my perspective of watching you grow - of being your Mom.
Friday, January 02, 2009
Sugar and Spice
Today we took you to the 20 week ultrasound to find out if your little sibling would be a boy or a girl.
You were betting it was going to be a boy, a little brother.
I think your Daddy and I both kind of thought it would be a girl. Not sure why....
I had told you that we were going to go and see the baby in my belly. Probably, I should have elaborated because I think you were a little surprised when an actual baby wasn't produced. Instead we saw black and white pictures on this screen and - although we would tell you what certain things were - it was hard for you to make out.
You spent a large part of the time spying on the doctors and nurses on the other side of the door. You didn't seem too disappointed to hear that it was a little girl.
It was the last thing they found in checking the scans. I thought the nurse just couldn't get a good position and, towards the end, I said "is the baby not cooperating?" I was afraid we might have to come back to find out later....
But then she said "No.... she's cooperating!"
You wouldn't want to spend the time watching these ultrasound videos unless you were a relative with a strong interest because a lot is hard to make out, but if you stick with it, you can really make out some good clear images after a lot of hard to make out ones.
It was really neat to see and I'm so glad you were there. You are proud that you are going to be a big brother and we celebrated tonight by letting you pick out a cake (carrot cake) and had dessert before we had dinner as a celebration.
It is going to be great to see the family that we grow into but you were the beginning of that and the realization that this is what I want. I am so happy, Sweetie!