These are letters to Jack, my son, and my daughter, Audrey. You have given me the gift of motherhood. This is just a little gift back. I want to share my experiences with you of your childhood from my perspective of watching you grow - of being your Mom.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Another Peek

Jack,

I got another peek today at your sibling. I had an appointment for some minor discomfort things and went in to visit the doctor to get checked. Because it was routine to check on the baby, they tried to locate the heartbeat, but could not. I must admit this made my heart almost stop because it never occurred to me that something could happen. Let me take the suspense out of this moment and ASSURE you that nothing was wrong.

It just so happens that I have a uterus that likes to lie down. Just recline backwards like it's the laziest friggin uterus in the world and, because of this, they couldn't find the heartbeat. No other reason.

So an ultrasound machine was brought in just to be sure all was well and probably to wipe that horrified look off my face. I think the nurse was more intent on me not having a heart attack between that moment and the next time I came in for an appointment and therefore was motivated to take it to the next level.

When we DID see your little sibling, VLB was VERY active. He/she was twisting and turning and kicking and jabbing with little limbs - just bouncing all over the place. The nurse said "Oh, my! Mommy must have just fed you!" and I replied "No, I actually haven't eaten yet."

At about this time, VLB seemed to become aware of us probing at him/her and talking in his/her direction and got still and kind of just looked at us. That was when she snapped the picture above.

I told her maybe VLB was pissed at me for not feeding him/her. She asked if you, Jack, were an active child and I said you definitely were. She then smiled at me in a knowing way and said "You are going to be a very busy lady."

I'm sure she said it with a certain amount of pity intended, but the relief I felt in seeing that baby bouncing around was so intense, I completely forgot about the other items I had come in for and left without any results. Just clutching this picture of VLB and thinking what it will be like to watch you two together.

Love,

Mommy


3 comments:

Anneliese said...

So wonderful! Bridget, we can't wait to meet VLB! Love, the Stoevers :)

mommadough said...

I just keep going to your site and looking at VLB. I am in awe of this tiny little life. Thanks for sharing the ultrasound pic.
Love, Mommadough

Laura said...

Congratulations Bridget!!! I had know idea that Jack is going to be a big brother. I wish you well.

Laura