These are letters to Jack, my son, and my daughter, Audrey. You have given me the gift of motherhood. This is just a little gift back. I want to share my experiences with you of your childhood from my perspective of watching you grow - of being your Mom.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Weekend

Jack,

This past weekend has been such a relief for all of us. Daddy missed us and has been having so much fun playing with you. You needed a little break from Mommy and all my "rules".Having Daddy around has allowed me to feel a little less "in charge" and I've relaxed quite a bit so we all have had a great weekend.When I picked you up from school on Friday, there was a snow cone car there giving snow cones to all the kids at your daycare. You said "I NO SNOWCONE" with both hands held out from your shoulders like you were asking a question, so we got in line. You chose pink as the snowcone you wanted, so we got Watermelon and sat on the bench to eat it with the big kids.Despite what the pictures show, I think you actually liked the snowcone!But snowcone=different and different=change which = Mommy-you-eat-it! Hey - I do what I can!
Friday night I took you to the Magic House to play for a little while. They have an outdoor sand castle exhibit which is confusing to little ones.They have a huge castle under a tarp that is being worked on regularly and looks fantastic. You couldn't understand why you couldn't "help" with the construction of the big castle.We shoveled sand for a little while but then it was just easier to play inside.We hit all our favorite areas and headed home when the Magic House closed.You shopped in the market like you love to do, There is a cute setup with the phones where kids can call each other from the library or house or restaurant or market and talk.You were excited to pick up the phone every time it rang, but you wouldn't say anything. You just listened for a minute and slammed the phone down. Maybe we'll hold off on you answering the home phone for awhile longer....Did you know that kids can play while they are sleeping?I should have taken note of the spaced-out expression on your face and taken you home.But, alas, hindsite is 20/20 and I didn't.So the naughty face started to show up frequently.The big eyes and barely hidden smile you get on your face when you are about to do something you know that you shouldn't.Turns out the toddler slide which is purposefully slower for you is starting to be too young for you.It took you forever to come down the slide and, when you did, you decided it was MUCH more fun to run back up it.Yes, you are graduating some older areas now.You surprised me with how good you were at sorting these shapes.It's the first time I've seen you play in this area and you did very well!Also, you had fun hanging colored rubberbands, but you didn't know how to stretch them out on the board and I didn't teach you for fear that one would snap back in your face and the world would come to an abrupt hault.Yesterday, your Daddy and I planned to take you to the City Museum after naptime, but by then they were only going to be open for another hour or so, so we all went to the Magic House again for more fun! You and Daddy had a lot of fun playing with some of the exhibits together.And YES, these are pictures from a different day and I am well aware that the fact that you are wearing the SAME CLOTHES puts me in the running for the most pathetic Mommy in the world award, but it is what it is.We all had fun playing with the balls, but I was the one snapping pictures, so you'll simply have to take my word for this! :)In some cases, less is more - and that is true here. I'll let the pictures of the day with Daddy speak for themselves:In the "House" area, Daddy messed with you by picking up a line and dialing the house phone and then putting that line on hold so the phone would ring just so he could watch you run over to answer it.Maybe this story loses something in the translation, but your Daddy and I found this hilarious. Maybe it was the 495,000 times that you fell for it that made is so wonderfully humorous and tempting to continue repeating.This morning, we found out that Lisa is in labor and you will likely have a new cousin born today! How exciting! We went outside where you displayed signs of your Uncle Brett by mowing the lawn.I wonder if Brett taught you it was okay to mow the lawn in your underwear....Hmmmmm....(By the way - I've been DYING to post this picture of Brett mowing the lawn in the pouring rain when they used to live next door.This seems like the PERFECT TIME!)
We discussed the new baby that was coming and you offered many sights like "I HEAR IT!" (talking about a passing plane in the middle of our discussion) and "I GIT IT!" about some toy that I have no idea of what you were referring to,but then you took off running around the yard looking for the mystery toy.By the time we made it inside, your feet were quite dirty. Believe it or not, these socks were WHITE before.Guess I should have remembered the shoe thing. Silly Mommy!Anyway - we are waiting on pins and needles for news of your new cousin!Love,

Mommy

Friday, June 08, 2007

98 degrees

Jack,

This title will mean ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to you when you get older, but has SOOOOO much meaning to me. Such deep, deep meaning.... Yesterday was a scorcher, so we went to the pool in the Shrews for the first time this year. It was SO frigging bright out that my camera just couldn't cope!You were so involved in the pouring and the dumping and the collection and discarding of water from various sources, that you didn't look up at me for at least 30 minutes.Does this mean that I had a break? Not quite.You were so thrilled with the many options of the pool that you would run to the water with a toy, try it out for 2 milliseconds, tire of it and throw it down - running off to find another toy. It didn't matter if it was yours or someone else's as long as it wasn't the same one you discarded 2 milliseconds earlier.AHHHHH, that toddler decisiveness! :) BREATHE IT IN! Also, in an effort to increase your confidence in the water, we practiced you climbing up and down the steps of the pool into and out of the water over and over again. You realized that your feet could reach the bottom of the pool where we were and you walked around, gaining confidence as you went. I blew bubbles as I swam towards you to make you giggle but also to help you be less scared of maybe SOMEDAY putting your head under the water.PAYPO TOWEL! PAYPO TOWEL! (PAPER TOWEL, PAPER TOWEL!)

Just kidding! By the way - this is what you call out anytime water gets on your face.... Oh, my god. I am going to hell for making fun of you!(Let's get real, here, though. You just KNOW "Making Fun Of Mommy" will become a favorite sport somewhere in the not-so-distant future, so I'm only being a little defensive here).You climbed up the stairs to the small water slide and really did try to go down. You climbed on it a couple of times, got really nervous and got off.I think if someone else had been there, you would have tried it, but - hey! We have all summer!Finally, we stumbled back to the car with all of our water toys and paraphernalia that I insist on taking with me (curse ME!) and you decided to give driving a try.You must be watching me pretty good because you were a whiz with the buttons and knobs.Emergency flashers? Right HERE!Windshield wipers? TUNES?!? NO PROBLEM!How about we crank up this A/C a little, huh? It's TOASTY!Hey, Mommy - do you want me to rotate the tires while I'm at it?We played in the "Pool Park" for a good 15 minutes. The "Pool Park" is pretty pathetic and consists of two children's swings and two adolescent swings and is very rusted, but the swings have LOOOOOONG chains so swinging on them is fun for you because the arc of the swing must feel like you are on an up and down ride forever. Your face was fantastic.Finally, you told the "Pool Park" - "I WUB OOOU" much to my frustration because you barely tell me that, but you confess your deepest love for the rusty old pool park... Chill, Mommy! Gosh!Last night was hard. Your latest stall tactic at night is VERY HARD for me to resist. You say "MOW BIIIIII HUUUUH, Mommy!" (More big hugs, Mommy) and I'll give you quite a few and then you say "MO TIME" and I say "Okay - one more time and then we go to sleep, Jack" and we snuggle a long time and then I say "Okay - now it's time to go to sleep". Then to hear the desperation in your voice as you reach your little hands in the air and plead: "MOOOOW BIIIIIII HUUUUUH! MOOOW BIIIIIH HUUUUH! MOW TIME! MOW TIME!" and then sob with your hands still extended and starting to wilt like you feel so rejected. Oh, my god. Just shoot me. I want so badly to scoop you up and hold you till you fall asleep. I have been trying so hard not to give into you on this because I think it interferes with you falling asleep and it's not very comfortable for me, but....Really, would that be so wrong? I'm thinking maybe it wouldn't. This is one habit maybe I shouldn't be so concerned about breaking....Love,

Mommy

Thursday, June 07, 2007

My Little Monster

Jack,

It came.
And you couldn't possibly look MORE ADORABLE!At first you were a little unsure of it.THEN, you were a little curious about it.
Then you decided that you liked it!
and that's good because I never want to take you out of it again.
I moved the hallway mirror to the floor so you could check out your own reflection whenever you wanted to.Also, April sniffed your new strange claw feet and determined you to be non-threatening, so.....
Guess what movie you insisted on watching while wearing your new favorite outfit?!?Here you are catching a glimpse of yourself in the mirror from across the room. Who IS that guy?!?

and, no, I didn't get the monster costume because we've been having some power struggles lately - I got it for no particular reason other than I know you are crazy about this movie and I wanted to see your face light up when you looked in the mirror and saw that you were a monster from your favorite movie."Mission Completion!"Is it Halloween yet? I want to show you off!

Love,

Mommy